Help. I'm an obsessive freak, what do I do?

You just sound lonely. Why don't you try to make some friends first then worry about a boy. Don't be so hard on yourself you sound like a decent person but your not giving yourself a chance with being so self critical. You actually are pretty funny and I'm sure people would enjoy your personality if you gave them a chance to get to know you. Feel free to interact with me anytime you might want to talk to someone. Take care.